I've been going through fucking hell and you want to bitch to me about how you dont think my problems are real? Go fuck yourself. You will NOT break me. You will NOT belittle me. And you will NOT knock me down. I refuse to fall.
My life has been tough as of late. Tough in a way I haven't known or seen in a long time. I withdrew into myself for a long time while I dealt with a lot of health issues as well as some family stuff that was happening. I leaned on my best friends, spent time with those that mattered to me, and tried to stay as positive as possible.
Through all of this I've realized who matters, who cares, and who doesn't. Who shows up, every time and who fails to call. It hurt and it stung but that pain became useful to me, and it continues to be useful to me.
I will always be myself. If anyone has a problem with that, or a question about something, ask me. People think they know me because they base it off the hearsay of others. That's not knowing someone. That's knowing peoples gossip. You can't base your opinion on someone as a person, by what other people say. It has to be your experience with that person, not influenced by the outside. It's how I treat all of my friends and everyone in my life. And how I think I should be treated as well. What people say is what people say, the truth gets twisted and turned, pretty soon what you think you know is the truth vs the lie, isn't right. It's all a mess.
I want to thank those who have stood by me, who have supported me through everything, who have had my back 100% without wavering, and always let me cry on their chest. A good friend of mine who has always supported me said that my life is mine to share, and I should share as much or as little as I want. She's a very smart (and gorgeous, you hot mama you!)lady but what she said really hit home. Intimate details of my life will never be public knowledge. The last few weeks/months have been hard for me and I have kept it all on the down low. Those that needed to know, close friends and family, did know. It was no one else's business because quite frankly, I didn't want it to be.
If you have a problem with me, you address it with me. But don't think for a second your mean words, snotty tone, and bitch ass attitude is ever going to change who I am.
